Despite his best efforts, Orion's attempt at being independent has yet to become very constructive. In truth, he just has no idea where to start.
He managed to talk Magdal's ear off a little about issues, but even that couldn't give him an answer so easily. It helped him consider things a bit more objectively, perhaps, but that was only of limited use when his spark was so tied up in this. Either option would hurt, and even if he could decide which hurt more, what he wants to believe has little to do with what's actually true.
He knows that. He does, and he hates ever day he wastes not being sure. Either way, he is leaving his friends to worry - or people who should be his friends. He hasn't spoken to Megatron since he left.
The guilt is what has really been getting to him. It seems like no matter what action he takes he is doing someone wrong, but he knows that anything less than the correct choice is unacceptable. There's not guarantee that if he doesn't make the decision for himself, and soon, that someone else won't make it for him.
Right now, his indecision has him shellshocked, and he can think of little to do with the situation but remain in his alt mode and try to think. He's taken to parking at a truck stop towards the outer rings of the city, and thus far he's spent almost two days doing nothing but watching humans come and go and intermittently recharging.
He's angry about what's been done to him, but more than anything, he's angry at himself.
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He managed to talk Magdal's ear off a little about issues, but even that couldn't give him an answer so easily. It helped him consider things a bit more objectively, perhaps, but that was only of limited use when his spark was so tied up in this. Either option would hurt, and even if he could decide which hurt more, what he wants to believe has little to do with what's actually true.
He knows that. He does, and he hates ever day he wastes not being sure. Either way, he is leaving his friends to worry - or people who should be his friends. He hasn't spoken to Megatron since he left.
The guilt is what has really been getting to him. It seems like no matter what action he takes he is doing someone wrong, but he knows that anything less than the correct choice is unacceptable. There's not guarantee that if he doesn't make the decision for himself, and soon, that someone else won't make it for him.
Right now, his indecision has him shellshocked, and he can think of little to do with the situation but remain in his alt mode and try to think. He's taken to parking at a truck stop towards the outer rings of the city, and thus far he's spent almost two days doing nothing but watching humans come and go and intermittently recharging.
He's angry about what's been done to him, but more than anything, he's angry at himself.