"... I dunno," says Karkat. He's silent for a moment, but then he lets a fist fall against the wall with a dull thud and mutters, "Fuck. Who am I even joking. I want it to be the same as when I lived there but I'd just be dead. We'd all be dead. Whole point of the entire place was just fucking each other over and I miss it because I'm a moron."